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Moses answered, “But behold, they will not believe me or listen to my voice, for they will say, ‘The Lord did not appear to you.’” The Lord said to him, “What is that in your hand?” (Exodus 4:1–2, esv)
If you’re a husband wanting to pray with your wife, do you worry what she’ll think about your praying, knowing you and your faults better than anybody? Or if you’re a mom, how hesitant do you feel before saying anything to your kids about the Lord, especially after the way you were screaming at them in the van yesterday? Or as you interact with people at work, how critical can you be of yourself sometimes, wishing you were more free and open with others, yet fearing what people might think if they really knew you?Conquering insecurity means simply coming to the place where you recognize you’ll never be good enough to close the believability gap, but God can do something to close it Himself. Click To Tweet
These are all insecurities—the awareness of a gap between who you are and who you want to be. And we all know the feeling.
For Moses in Exodus 4, his insecurity probably came from knowing he had a past. He was a murderer. He’d killed a man. How likely would people be to think this guy with a criminal record was actually chosen by God to represent Him? “They will not believe me or listen to my voice,” Moses argued.
Maybe a lot of your insecurity, too, comes from having a past failing or embarrassment. Or maybe it’s something more current and ongoing. But in either case, the feeling is there, and it won’t go away. You’ve decided you’re not someone who could ever be a spiritual leader or example to others because you are so far from perfect in how you’ve lived.
But the important thing to remember—and I hope this gives you some fresh hope today—is that God—and only God—can close the gap. You don’t need to try powering over it, pretending no gap is even there. Nor do you need to stay passive, almost paralyzed, caving in to your feelings. Conquering insecurity means simply coming to the place where you recognize you’ll never be good enough to close the believability gap, but God can do something to close it Himself.
That’s what I love about how He responded to Moses. “What is that in your hand?” He said to him, not really directly answering Moses’ objection. Do you remember how He told Moses to throw down his staff? “So he threw it on the ground, and it became a serpent” (Exodus 4:3). After that, He told him to put his hand inside his cloak, “and when he took it out, behold, his hand was leprous like snow” (Exodus 4:6). Then when he put it back in, “it was restored like the rest of his flesh” (Exodus 4:7).
But, why all this, God? What was His point in doing these miracles for Moses?
Answer: He was dealing with Moses’ insecurity. He wasn’t blowing off his argument at all. He was giving him stories—God stories—and was saying to him, in essence, “When you go to Egypt, tell your story about Me.” Instead of getting stuck in his insecurities, Moses was just to tell people about the encounters he’d had with the living God. It wasn’t about Moses. It wasn’t about his past. It was all about God—what Somebody had done for a nobody.
That’s how He moves you past your insecurities, by helping you build up your collection of God stories. Don’t worry about what you’ve done, how you sound, or what others will think. “Just tell your story about Me.” That alone will speak volumes.
• If you don’t already journal, would you start? You’ll see the stories of God in your life start piling up.
• What’s a God story He’s done in you already? Ask Him for an opening to share it.
Father, thank You for being at work in my life. Thank You for making my story so much bigger than me. Thank You for intervening, for answering prayer, for turning things around at the last minute, and for keeping me going in the meantime. Remove from me the self-imposed pressure to justify my own credibility. Help me simply trust that You will draw people through our stories to see Your love and power. In Jesus’ name, amen.
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